Friday, November 14, 2008

I Don't Wanna!!!


.....So school is where my head should be at right now. I started my homework (A Book Review) and then I simply got tired of writing it and stopped to Blog. I need a break! School is so consuming...especially these online classes. They think they can give you more work just because you don't drive to the school. I am constantly trying to squeeze in the rest of my life around school and I'm simply tired and STRESSED. I know I will continue to go to school and I know that I will continue to complain but,I really enjoy learning...its when everything is due at the same time that I just feel like screaming and curling up into a ball in the corner of my dark closet. (yes, I have done this before...ask Dan)

Dan gave me a blessing though and Heavenly Father assured me that if I would just pray to him and ask for help, then he would provide a way for me to complete ALL of my work. It is hard, when I am overwhelmed, to STOP and think to get down on my knees right there and then. I always seem to wait till after I BLOW UP to reach out to my Heavenly Father. After the blessing I realized that when my heart starts pumping in a worried frenzy and my head begins to ache... I need to get down and thank my Heavenly Father for all I have. That alone makes me feel like I am able to relax and finish the work that is in front of me. I know that the major message that he sends me most of the time is ...one thing at a time! I like to change my focus a lot and it helps a lot more when I can finish one thing and then move onto the next. Another thing that I have learned is that I need a brake every once in a while during the day...taking a 10 min. brake just to tickle my little boy, seriously, juices me up for the next 5 hours that I might have to spend working on homework.

I guess I'm not really trying to make a point...I'm just taking one of my 10 min. brakes and juicing up again. I just want to complain and write down what I am feeling so that I can realize that it really isn't that bad. I have a lot more free time then a lot of moms with 5 kids and I GET to go to school! That is a blessing!
OK, I'm going to go play with my little munchkin (because he has been sitting in his highchair for, you don't want to know how long) and then I will get back to work and feel much better once my assignment is finished.


By the way, have any of you read this book (Snow Falling on Cedars)...just thought I would ask. If so, please indulge me with your opinion on it.

5 comments:

Unknown said...

Sorry your having a hard time, sissy. You have the right mindframe though. Just don't try to overdo everything else and you'll get through it. And like you said, you GET to go to school. I wish I could right now but school in UT is about 3 X's more expenisve. Good luck.
About the book...I saw the movie...it was weird but the book might be WAY different and interesting.

Lizzy said...

I actually bought that book at a discount store recently and have been wanting to read it. Let me know what you think...

Anonymous said...

Take it one day at a time. Don't overwhelm yourself by thinking of everything you have to do all at once. It's the only way I stay sane (and I'm not even in school) Peace, pray for peace EVERYDAY!

Kristin said...

I try to do too much in a day and set my expectations of my To Do List too high. It sounds silly, but just do the best you can.

anderson.fam said...

Wow: school, baby, and hubby? Superwoman! You can do it! I think I saw that movie, was it a movie?
Oh yeah, I tagged you on my blog. If you get a moment, you can check it out!